Friday, December 26, 2008
Why is it that you put yourself through shit when you know it won't turn out well? Why didn't I listen to her and myself about not talking? We both knew it wouldn't help. I was selfish and she was just being nice. For some reason I just wanted her to know how badly she hurt me, but I wasn't mean about it. I guess I was just feeling very emotional being Christmas and all and she finally showed me the time of day and I got carried away. I wish she had just stuck to her guns and not talked to me. That may be the last time I hear from her ever and that's quite hard to swallow.